tough cookies and bitter chocolates

10 November 2009 @ 11:39 pm

Today was bizarre.

Choir today was disturbing; 'nuff said. More will eventually come, it's just a matter of time - so let's not dwell too much on it for now.

SO. To the point of this post.

Was talking to manda online about Choir Camp stuff, before my computer totally shut down and everything within my sight turned pitch black. Freaked out, wanted to squat down and close my eyes before my thoughts went wild but my brother came into the room and I told him to hold my hand and lead me out of the study (which he did :o) - how nice!

Then we went to our balcony and our neighbours were shouting things like OMG and whatever nonsense right out into the night; apparently the entire condominium had undergone a power failure. (bless the olevel/alevel students)

Then lights went back on and I realised my comp's monitor short-circuited. -.- Mom tried to fix it, asked me to hold one end of a wire, and then subsequently another end of another wire (or so i thought), and I kept warning anyone who came by that it was a LIVE WIRE until my mum got round to bothering about me and laughed at me because it's merely a totally DISconnected wire - when i straightened the damn wire, it was just a sole wire independent of any electronic appliance. And so she goes on to tell me this is the dumbass fate of a student who does not take Physics and I laugh at myself.

And then I engage in a short debate about what I want for breakfast tomorrow - yes, ah ma, something in your 'style', not your 'dao'.

This mad world
makes me smile
still

Current Mood:

amused

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09 November 2009 @ 06:12 pm

being a sesquipedalian is unnecessary... but fun.

Some things i've learnt:

- Happiness is a state of mind.
- Better late than never.
- Cherish what you have. Try to make 'em last.
- When nobody else encourages you, spur yourself on. Just don't give up.

Till I pick up more from the Well of Wisdom, that's all folks.

( there's a jellyfish stuck on my chest.. woops. )

Current Mood:

enthralled

Current Music: monsoon - tokio hotel

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02 November 2009 @ 10:19 pm

cake batter!

Coraline's soundtrack is so haunting and... delicious. For anyone who hasn't watched it, you must. It's scrumptiously dark and evils lurk like toffee swirls until you can't help it but gobble up everything at one go - only to find out beneath all that, there's still a rare gem of hard candy, whose taste lingers in your mouth longer after it dissolves into just a hint of stickiness. mmm, Apple.

I really like hard candies nowadays. You know, those that come in a tin? Metal tin. Maybe with an adorable illustration on it as well. They make such wonderful keepsakes.

And of course, WPPM - I just wanted to say it's one of the most wonderful things that has happened to me in NY. Along with many other miracles of course. Like Choir, 203, certain special people (even if i may sometimes bitch about you because i am but part-bitch.. WHO ISNT?!)... Christmas is nearing, and this time, I don't think I'll do my appreciation only on that day itself.

I think i've said this before: birthdays and christmases are becoming less and less significant for me. I haven't learnt to cherish them properly yet, I guess. If I've said " by gum, I love Christmas" before, I think that was just a silly lass's words.

Fifteen years old and standing short, I now swallow them. I think I'd rather stick to attemping to make each day more live-able. With a bit of luck, perhaps even more memorable, too.

Current Mood:

thoughtful

Current Music: coraline OST - exploration

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29 October 2009 @ 10:12 pm

and he gave a grin that transcended dead paper

Read something that made the most sense for a few weeks.

"There is only one sin, only one. And that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of theft. When you kill a man, you steal a life. When you tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth. When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness. Do you see?"

Current Music: the sun and the moon - mae

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24 October 2009 @ 12:09 am

don't get all out of love

I think everyone's in bliss now. Be it having a whale of a time shopping, watching movies, getting angry at yourself for the littlest things, enjoying long naps that way surpass the measly forty winks we catch under normal circumstances, if you think about it, it's all things that are exclusive. So if your life's slowly getting perfunctory, sapped of novelty, why not tilt your head up and gaze into the blamelessly blue sky and tell yourself not to waste your seconds complaining about having truckloads of 'unoccupied and boring days' at this moment. Sure, the notion of 'liberty' may have been a placebo for all of us at the start of this race, but don't forget, having a psychological comfort is better than none. Fun doesn't always come in big bangs and indelibly passionate moments - subtlety and simplicity has its own charm too.

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20 October 2009 @ 10:06 pm

school's (kind of) out!!

( rant >.< )
WENT OUT WITH THEODORA TODAY! Watched 500 days of summer + cloudy with a chance of meatballs in a row. Absolutely amazing, almost cathartic. And as usual I laughed horribly loudly, and cried at various parts of both movies, and theodora was definitely a more 'tamed' audience. (: Had pretty good talks, and I swallow my words: TWO AND ONLY TWO PEOPLE GOING OUT isn't a weird thing. ^^ actually it's just that you're so friggin tall and i'm a pathetic midget, so I was worried we'd look like two puzzle pieces that don't fit but HECK it was damn fun. <3

Okay I suddenly don't want to type anymore. My mother's intent on making me come back early tomorrow AND to cage me up at home on thursday so that just in case my brother needs any help in math and science, i'll be there to rescue him. Sigh, woes of an elder sister. -.- Did I mention that I got an Everlast shoebag for him as a birthday present, albeit a little belated?

BYE I will pick up reading again this holiday. ^^

Current Mood:

peaceful

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18 October 2009 @ 10:55 pm

because i am really sick of math )':

I was surfing lj communities just a minute ago, and guess what? I'm seeing icons that i saved way back turned into banners. So that equals magnified image with sharper resolution, yes? And when I got a closer look at them again, it turned out that everything I saw when I saw it as an icon was wrong - brown sticks with pink tips which looked like some sort of version of strawberry Pocky turned out to be girly matchsticks. A girl whom I thought was part of a mosaic turned out to be the artist making a mess out of the paints she had at hand. Likewise, banners which I saved had been turned into icons; so yes, minimized, both in terms of relative size and significance - the forlorn girl didn't seem forlorn enough for me to save (pun not intended) her anymore.

And all of that trivial 'revelations' just made me realise that I am indeed a myopic human being; blind to the things that are screaming right into our vision, yet ironically, exceptionally acute to the superficiality of things on the large scale.

In other news: I CANNOT WAIT FOR EOYZ TO END WHEN THAT HAPPENZ I WILL GO OUT WITH ALL MY LOVELIES <3

Current Mood:

bouncy

Current Music: try - asher book

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15 October 2009 @ 09:49 pm

i've more folds on my left eyelid

Lady Gaga's music is oddly addictive. Lately during exams they keep booming in my head! Like you know, half way through mcqs i'll hear some 'p-p-p-pokerface p-p-pokerface' or 'and a game and a -HUH-' - forget it i'm just a little outta my mind

One more paper next tuesday then we'll all be liberated. ^^ At least until the results come back to us. 'what goes around comes around'~ [croons justin timberlake] my goodness i'm off my rocker; suddenly all this pop is messing with my grey matter. And you know, I was just thinking back about all the papers that we've taken so far (ps:i have concluded that i am perpetually engaged in a love-hate relationship with literature, sigh) and omgooooose, Sec three really is alot tougher than Sec two huh yeah - I look at my brother's sec one exam schedule and it's by comparison, alot less daunting. I quote him: "wah jie look at my schedule! Looks so friendly right? -looks at mine and is absolutely aghast-" Thank goodness RI's exams end later than NY's.

After EOYs I will resolve myself to buying a nice diary to pen my innermost thoughts with. The kind that has a thick, trusty cover, with a really pretty/ super cute design that can relieve my daily woes. Sometimes I think I post more for the others in mind, than for myself.

Current Music: the man who can't be moved - the script

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11 October 2009 @ 06:55 pm

little bit of love!

( this is the hardest story i've ever told )

Current Mood:

ditzy

Current Music: mika - happy ending

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02 October 2009 @ 10:37 pm

we're all like Charlies

( 'cause this is my Kinderbueno-Kitkat equivalent )

Current Mood:

contemplative

Current Music: crazy moon - arashi

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26 September 2009 @ 07:52 pm

this is what makes me happy

Watched Kurt and Sam's interivew in Bonnie Hunt Show. Wow Kurt actually cut his hair! He looks tonnes cuter now. And oh my goose i CANNOT BELIEVE HE MAJORS IN MATH -.- and what's even more unbelievable is that Sam majors in Classical Greek (yeah what the hell is that)

I SWEAR I WILL SUPPORT THEM WHEN THEY BURST INTO SHOWBIZ [:

so anyway, here's another awesome song by them. <3

( you fill my heart's emptiness )

Current Mood:

pleased

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24 September 2009 @ 10:10 pm

Iamaskyscraperastiffscaffoldiamiamiam.

Been drumming this into my head everyday: "WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, THE TOUGH GETS GOING"
Hang on, hang on - just for a little more.

This time, I hope not to crumble too easily.

Current Music: samson - regina spektor

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19 September 2009 @ 03:41 pm

a sockhop beneath my bed

Yesterday, I learnt that the world likes winners.

Maybe winners only.

Then again, who's anyone to judge who's one.

PS: Thanks, joy. (:

Current Mood:

determined

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15 September 2009 @ 07:38 pm

because i'm just waiting to go to the toilet

( me is a muser (: )

Current Mood:

contemplative

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13 September 2009 @ 10:10 pm

somewhere over the rainbow

You can feel the Haze slowly infusing into the atmosphere. That faintly burnt smell, but mostly very familiar. Granted it causes lung irritation, respiratory tract infections,... but I find the smell, peculiarly, comforting. Does anyone agree with me? Everytime I say that, my mum stares back at me incredulously, like my nose is Rudolph's.

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10 September 2009 @ 06:30 pm

a foxtrot above my head

I haven't been able to sit as still as I have been hoping. When revising, that is.
I haven't exercised a SINGLE BIT.
Revision has been occupying most of my time lately. Or you can call it mugging. Chionging. Being a nerd.
My moods alternate between being feeling accomplished and bored to the top.
Currently, my mood emoticon would shine 'bored'.
I have lost the ability to write in continuous prose. At least for this minute.
I think people who keep talking about Life in general are... preachers. They should become pastors.
yay PASTAS. (do you see the relation of it with anything? tell me tell me if you do)
I like looking at my brother's childhood photos. They are so real I keep confusing the adorable plushie-lookalike him in the past with present reality.
Now, I look at my brother and feel mostly exasperation.
I like Dictionary.com. It helps me refresh my vocabulary.
Did you know that 'noisome' has nothing to do with noise?
It means disgusting and offensive, wrt odour. And, noxious.
And that's the word of the day!
SIAN does not equal to NOTHING TO DO.
( this is what you do when you are sian )

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06 September 2009 @ 11:02 pm

a summer's disregard, a broken bottle top, and a one man's soul.

( man in the mirror )

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05 September 2009 @ 07:15 pm

because i choose to procrastinate.

( fireflies )

Current Mood:

cheerful

Current Music: 关于dt

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03 September 2009 @ 10:30 pm

spaghetti and meatballs

These few days have been terribly mundane. EOYz are making my days ahead look bleak - just looking at those exam dates, list of topics tested, my own schedule (which hasn't even materialised completely yet) is stifling me. I'm exceptionally pessimistic about certain subjects, i.e IHxzxzxzxz. BUT I will muster up enough courage (and DISCIPLINE) to try my best to conquer it. YEAH!!! Methinks i'll just spend my time with books for the next two months and then bulldoze my way through exams with crossed fingerstoesarmsheart

I think this is just a dash of optimism/air-headedness.

Been having the strangest of dreams lately. I think I saw myself teaching some cute children in a classroom (my god i don't want to be a teacher) in my last dream... Can't remember the rest if I remember I'll tell you! I bet it'll be something along the lines of the world as a mass fo worksheets, notes, trigonometry, jargon etc.

I miss those times when all I had to worry about was if I could write my number 8s.

Current Mood:

blah

Current Music: superhero - dt

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31 August 2009 @ 10:23 pm

chatterboxes are so because they're afraid of silence

( a secret )

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pensive

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